Psalm 51:1-2
For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
Trevor was a lifelong Christian. He’d been baptized as a tiny baby. As a child, he’d gone to Lutheran elementary school, church, and Sunday School. Even in his twenties, he’d never neglected to put his faith first. He made it a habit to study his Bible at home and even in the lulls at work. You could expect to see him in church every week with his wife and their young daughter.
So you cannot begin to imagine how shocked everyone was when it came out that Trevor had been having an affair for over a year with another member of the congregation.
As shocked as they were, people tried to rationalize what he’d done. As good as things looked on the outside, he must have been a bad husband and father. His marriage must not have been as strong as it looked. He must not have been the sincere Christian he pretended to be.
But the truth was far scarier. Trevor was not a hypocrite. His family life and his faith were not a sham. He had a great marriage and he loved his wife and daughter more than anything. He was a sincere believer. He didn’t go to church just for show.
As the situation made their heads spin, Trevor’s family and friends had one more shock to endure. Trevor didn’t back down. He didn’t apologize. He admitted nothing. He continued to see the woman and didn’t seem to think anything of it. He had somehow convinced himself that he was in the right.
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Maybe we’ve heard the story of David and Bathsheba too often to fully feel how shocking it was. David was a lifelong believer. David slept with another man’s wife and murdered the man to cover it up. He took the woman as his wife, even though he was already married.
That’s shocking. That’s evil.
Worst of all, he refused to admit there was anything wrong with what he had done. Until the prophet Nathan confronted him and showed him the ugly truth. David wrote this psalm in the moments after he’d been forced to realize his sin.
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We should never be shocked by the depths of human sinfulness. Each one of us can look into our hearts and recognize, “There, but for the grace of God, I go.” If you don’t think so, watch out!
Every human being is capable of what Trevor did. We like to blame our circumstances when we sin, but the reality is that sometimes our circumstances couldn’t be better and we still sin. We need some serious help.
As Christians, we are children of God. That is who we are. We cannot forget, however, that we have a sinful nature (the “flesh”). The sinful nature is that little unbeliever that lives in each of us. It hates God. It will not do what he wants. It will not be converted. The only way we will ever be rid of it is when we die or Jesus returns. The sinful nature is ugly and evil.
That sinful nature no longer defines us. We are saints because of Jesus. But it wants to. It is a hideous, mangled monster that lurks in our hearts, waiting for any opportunity to drag us down to hell with it.
Sometimes it succeeds. It convinces us to do appalling sins. Then it tempts us to despair. To throw in the towel and say, “How could God forgive me? What use could God possibly have for a sinner like me?”
Don’t believe a word of it. You don’t owe obedience to your sinful nature. You owe obedience to God. And to think God couldn’t forgive you? Of course he can! If we are capable of any evil, then God is capable of so much greater good! If he cleansed our hearts of sin once, he can heal them again. If God himself died on the cross for our sins, then who in the world are you or anyone to say he can’t forgive you? And call God a liar? God forbid!
At our weakest moments, when we’ve given in again, God never ceases to be strong. At the moments we’re reminded of how little power we have to resist the lies of that ugly monster in our hearts, we stand amazed at God’s power to transform a heart like ours so that we see the monster for what it really is and use our newfound strength to put it in its place.
If we have or will ever sin again (and we will), we are forgiven already. Christ died for that and every sin. If we realize how far we’ve fallen, then we see all the more the love of God as we beg him to give us a clean heart. He will. You are forgiven. You are strong. Enjoy it. It’s free! God has made you whiter than snow!
Dear Lord,
Create in me a clean heart, then fill me with joy as I see your beautiful forgiveness and the strength you've given me to follow you. Amen.